So many of us struggle with this….I know that I personally have been just going through life…enduring one trial at a time…coasting through the joys…waiting for the next trial.
Trials are always going to come, and they can come in waves…or huge crashes that knock you over. They can be personal, physical, financial, work related, family, you name it.
I have become tired of living in a manner that is unhealthy….withdrawing further and further into myself because I’m so afraid of being hurt…in that withdrawal…I was finding myself more and more closed off…so much so…I could hardly breathe anymore.
Life is not meant to be lived alone….and there will always be cruddy stuff that happens…some of it debilitating….and I have been knocked over once or twice in my own life…I find when I’m walking through the toughest thing…I rely on Him for absolutely everything….when life is good….I withdraw …..I don’t want to go places, see people…or anything….I just want to be in my small little world.
In times of great trial…I have learned to listen to Him intently (I should be doing that anyway…but I feel like I’ve got life in control, and I don’t need Him) but when there is nothing else I can do…no way I can fix something…without His hand….I’ve learned to listen more…and His voice has been so clear.
For this next year He has asked me to be intentional in my giving. It’s easier to just throw money at different causes or charities (and don’t get me wrong…they all NEED money) but I have felt a tug…to go and do things that I’d rather not do. I feel that’s where He has me at right now…to be completely obedient. I’ve reached out to several groups….and so far He wants me to be busy😬.
This year…its servant hood…and so far…I’m really tired…but really happy 😬🤡❤️😘
The Reluctant Red Nose 