Mother’s Day found me cranky…and like many of you…my list was long on things that I was cranky about…because…just like you…and everyone else in the world…I’m ready to be done with this.
I’ve gotten off social media…only to be dragged back on when innocently checking my business pages…..started fights, shared things I should not..and was frankly…just a tad sour.
Sour actually, if the perfect word. If you wonder what powerful impact the written word is…check how you feel lately after reading the latest news article…I found that for me…it was just raising my anxiety level…and my level of despair was growing.
Today, someone wrote that there will be a new “normal” and my rebellious spirit was upset by that…then they referred to flying after 9/11 and how everything changed…and in the beginning we all complained about taking our shoes off, going through security, water bottles, only small bottles of hand sanitizer or any liquid…and we all now do it like pros.
What does our world look like after all this has settled? I have no idea. Some say we will have masks for all outings…others that we will have to have our temps taken…and all I can say is…ok…let’s do it.
I miss hearing sports on tv….I miss going to a restaurant where people brought food to me…filled my glass….and took my dirty dishes. I’m miss flying on a plane…I don’t think I will ever say I hate flying ever again….because even though it makes me sooo nervous…I love all the amazing places and I have lots of places I want to go to soon. I won’t complain about getting my nails done and how long that takes, or my hair. I won’t complain about all the stuff my daughter is involved in and places we need to go. I miss the roar of a crowd…I miss movie theatres…and I miss plays and roller skating rinks, swimming pools and hotels, the inside of TJ Maxx…and camping. I miss all sorts of things that I thought I never would.
I miss clowns that were allowed at nursing homes…and clowns that were able to teach clown classes. I miss clown school, and clowning for schools as well…
I miss smiles…instead of being hidden beneath a mask…I miss breathing fresh air instead of using a mask constantly…
I am grateful to be able to have the Stay at Home order lifted in my city. I’m grateful to have my store open and how busy we have been…I’m grateful for warmer days ahead…
Lessons I have learned. We say mean things from the safety of our computer screens we would never say in person. We say we are in this together, when in fact…we are not…we are usually surviving the best way we know how. We preach to each other to be kind…but shame people for their choices. Wearing masks and gloves, staying home or going out…these are all personal decisions that we are all free to make and should be allowed to make without judgement from others.
I have said from the beginning to turn off the news…to concentrate on what is good…what is positive…what is holy and what is kind.
I believe that we will look back on this like we did on any other tragedy that has come down on us. We will be amazed at those who overcame…and saddened by the ugliness of others. We will shake our head at the bad choices that others made and the selfishness of so many more.
I am grateful for the quality time I’ve had with my family. Grateful for being able to get some projects done that in never had time to do…but so glad that we are starting to slowly get back to normal.
Social media for me looks a lot different right now. I’ve been much quieter…just business pages and a few small groups…and my anxiety and sour attitude is getting better.
Righty now 2020 feels like the movie “Groundhog day” and we seem to be stuck in February forever and sticking our foot in an icy wet hole everyday…but I keep thinking each day…soon…we are going to finally all move forward…and I keep looking forward to that day.
Just keep on trucking….we are almost done with Groundhog Day I’m sure!
The Reluctant Red Nose 