Nobody Talks About It

The other day I turned off my news alerts. I couldn’t take the covid updates ONE more day. I unfollowed mass amounts of people who had strict opinions about wearing masks and NOT wearing masks…and frankly…I don’t want to hear about any more of it anymore.

I think it’s scary how quickly we have turned on one another…how much hatred we have for one another. If you don’t wear a mask your officially a “hater of mankind” and if you do wear one “your an overzealous moron”. Can we all just let each other do what makes them comfortable? But the answer is no…we can’t.

Today after returning some items to three stores I got in my car and almost cried. Had I not been in a parking lot, I surely would have . Can we all just talk about how much right now hurts. When I walk by you and you cringe and step away…it truly hurts. When I see people I haven’t seen in months and just have to wave… it hurts. I don’t think I will ever take a hug for granted again. I don’t think I will ever take someone putting their hand on my shoulder again…

I can’t clown at retirement homes…probably not for a year…maybe longer if a vaccine isn’t found. They was my outlet…my happy place…where I could get creative and make people smile…and now smiles are hid behind masks.

4th of July…my favorite summer holiday…no firework shows….small gatherings…and people terrified of others.

I keep turning off more and more noise…because today…I spent in and out of tears. Sad for my daughter who can’t be with friends very much…activities canceled and sports canceled. Even homeschooling activities for fall are uncertain…and so many questions.

Today, this feels like it will not end…that life is unbearable…that things won’t change…and I normally can snap out of it….

So, I got on my social media….I have unfollowed pages and pages of news…and things and people that are giving me anxiety. I have to keep believing that things will get better…that this will pass and we will all be better for it. I have to believe that God is on the throne…and He is aware of our plight.

I keep thinking of all the things that have been lost and missed out on this year…and wondering how long can this possibly go on. I fear for my children, my business my country…my fellow man…

Part of me wishes we could all just take the biggest nap ever and wake up and this is gone… but I know that that’s not how it works.

So, for today…I cut up soap made with my own two hands…

I enjoy the silly frog that visits us each summer and hangs out on our patio glass door.

I will be grateful for our customers and sales today…and my employees.

I will be grateful for my car that’s freshly cleaned and looking awesome 😬😬😎

I will be happy with fun face masks….in hopes that it makes someone smile.

But most of all…I hope this will teach me…(a otherwise introvert) that not having physical touch or contact…or connection with our fellow man is what has made this whole ordeal so difficult. I understand it…and I’m not questioning it…but I hope that I never take for granted things that just five months ago…I thought nothing of.

Even though we can’t hug or see a lot of our friends…may I encourage everyone to be texting and calling…sending pics and perhaps even old fashioned letters…let language be what helps us through this…may we be able to connect with one another that way…while we wait to be able to embrace one another.

Three weeks ago a new lady I was meeting shook my hand…and I about cried…she forgot and apologized…but it was the happiest handshake I’ve had in nearly three months.

We need one another….perhaps this 4th of July you will be able to see some close friends or family…and you can sneak in some quick hugs followed by massive hand washing😬😬😬