I Believe in You

Today at church…I just bawled. I don’t think most of us have taken the time to just sit down and think about what’s going on. Most of us don’t want to…we are just trying to stay sane.

Today as I lifted my hands in the air…I cried…

The song

“I believe in you, I believe in you…the God of miracles.” As I bawled…I realized…that no one around me I could hug…and the tears came down more. I’m sure the little elderly lady beside me would have let me hug her…but I didn’t want to put her in danger and possibly cause her to get ill because she’s in the danger age….so I cried more…I know….makes perfect sense.🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️

Since this all began there has been a mask debate and I’ve learned something about myself and others. If you want someone to change their behavior, don’t act as if they are horrible people for having differing opinions.

You want reality? Reality is having your store closed…your source of income…your life…for an unexplainable amount of time…no one knew…because no one knew what we were dealing with. When we opened we had to wear masks…and we did because we were just happy to be open.

The CDC and other authorities have constantly changed their opinions…there are countless studies on both sides of the argument. I have headaches after wearing it all day…that’s a fact…not a silly story…it’s a fact.

I loathe to see the Facebook memes stating that if you don’t wear a mask you want a fellow citizen to die..or that you care for people more because you do wear one…

Here’s my feelings….I cried the first time I saw children walk into my store with masks On and how scared they were of everyone….can you imagine how scary strangers must be now to little kids with our masks on? I cried that this is a memory that they will have forever. I cried that my son is missing out on college classes he would have so enjoyed to have in person instead of online

I had a really bad attitude about wearing masks to church…I didn’t even want to go…but even though we can’t hug each other and must social distance…raising my hands with my fellow Christ followers was such balm to my soul that was soo lonely and so hurting.

As I sat there and looked around..I saw many my parents age…and I had a change of heart. I would want you fellow citizens to keep my parents safe…and it’s up to me to keep your parents safe….and even though there’s conflicting reports on cloth masks…what if in the end they find that it is how we keep the elderly safe…what if that’s all we had to do and we didn’t?

I have no political theories….I have an opinion on the economics of it. I have an opinion on those who will boycott stores because we are trying to make everyone feel safe in a time when no one feels safe. I definitely have an opinion on those who say mean things to those with a differing opinion…but today…I sat there…and thought…”what if I’m wrong?”

So…if this brings the numbers down…and kids can go back to school and life can be as it once was…isn’t that a small price? I know there are many who say our liberties are being taken away…many who say they won’t take a vaccine ever…and I disagree. This post is not about that…it’s about…what if we were wrong?

To those of you confused on why so many people are against masks….it all started with the guilt…and saying people don’t care about others. If you want people to take a bigger step away from you, make sure you tear down the fact that they can’t possibly be caring individuals. Then, after that….make sure you make countless memes about your superiority. Lastly, call them stupid…and that they have no Brains and lump them all into one category. That is how you train people to turn you off and not listen to anything you have to say.

We are all new to pandemics. This is our first one. The people we rely on to help us, say confusing things…even doctors are arguing. So be patient with one another…and make your choices with compassion and understanding. Because when this is all over…I don’t want people to remember how “right” I was…but how I felt and decided to act…in case I was wrong.