Fall Is Coming

Today was hard….I’ve struggled the last several days with anxiety. I know so many have as well so nothing I am saying is shocking. The thing is. Most of us don’t talk about it.

I don’t want to think about my son sitting in his apartment taking online classes…missing out on things his junior year of college because of this stupid Covid. After this is over I don’t want to hear that word ever again!

I understand the precautions. I’m clear on the risk for young people and I’m aware that to some people, that makes me an “imbecile.” Perhaps it does, but I can honestly tell you that there are many suffering, and a lot of us are dealing with more in mental anguish than Covid itself could ever do to us.

I looked back at old pictures where we would gather in crowds and go out to eat and enjoy the laughter of everyone around us. Now, I’m in fear of what restaurants can possibly survive this? What retail stores will survive? What vacation spots can make it through?

So the anxiety mounted. I see back to school pictures with kids with their masks on…and while I’m thrilled some get to go back to school….I’m so very sad to see us all going through this.

So, yesterday….after we had completed our first day of school!!!

My perfect covid clown costume came!!!

And I will say to remember this….

Just because someone in their social media feed may seem all happy….they are truly struggling…and today my anxiety was suffocating….I came home from my meetings and appointments and lit my candles and decorated for fall and then got busy with work stuff…and my spirits are lifted…but still anxiety is near…

So I am trying to take these moments and concentrate on smaller things…and not looking at the big picture right now….