When I Don’t Want To

Social media is overwhelming right now. Lately, I’ve become anxious and depressed because of all the negativity…so I have unfriended, unfollowed…and well…it’s something I’ve continued to do daily.

Saturday, as I sat at a campground I looked through one of my social media outlets…and was thankful. Thankful that I had taken the time to take the pictures.

I have adult children…and I have taken pictures of every single event…some big and some small…but pictures to me..are memories. When our memories fail, pictures help us to keep those events in order and how they happened. They are all we have when someone is gone.

My social media outlets are not well known…my followers are a few, the comments and likes even fewer…but I guess I don’t really do it to get thousands of likes…I do it for the people that say I make them smile. The people that say they enjoy my content. I do it, for the memories as well.

We all agree that 2020 has been the worst year…but I bet when you go back and you look at events from this year and memories you made, you cannot say it was a wasted year.

Projects I didn’t want to do but found the time to do, and new creative ways to do things are memories I will always keep from 2020. This year also taught me how quickly life can change..

I know that it’s hard for so many of us to be in the pictures. I have hardly any pictures with my youngest daughter when she was a toddler because I was the one busy taking the pictures. I was too embarrassed to ask someone to take our picture together..:and now I have no pictures of me with her hardly.

I changed that a few years ago. Even though I have gained weight and don’t look as amazing as I once did…I still want to be in the pictures . I want my children to have that picture and actual photo in their hand some day.

I know that many of us put pictures out and then erase them because we feel no one cares about what we do…but I promise you that someone does.

There is someone out there waiting to be influenced by someone like you. No one else can influence them the way you do..because you are the only one that knows how to reach that particular person.

I don’t have social media for all the thousands upon thousands that come through…because if I did…I would have given up long ago.

I take the pictures and share my life for the few that it encourages…but mainly for me. I keep it for me…because as I get discouraged in life…I look back through the pictures of my life. I know the long and twisted and scary road I’ve had to go down…and I’m grateful for every good thing I have . I forget those things…but pictures help me remember…and on days that I just don’t want to…those pictures serve as a saving grace as a reminder for all I have and all I need to be grateful for!