Go To Sleep

I have a new couch floating in the ocean….it’s waiting to enter port by California. California is basically closed….so like a ton of others…I wait.

A year ago, I looked at 2020 to be the best year ever…but like many, I’ve learned just how good I’ve got it.

So far, as of the date of this writing, my family has not had Covid. You could argue that we have great immunity. You could argue that we got our flu shot. You could argue that even from the beginning we have been pretty careful. The last few months we have been extremely careful. I know that many have…and I can’t explain how we haven’t gotten it and others have.

Many still argue about the validity of wearing a mask. All I can say is I was skeptical in the beginning. Listening to the experts who could not even figure out what was true what wasn’t. I will tell you that I do believe that masks work, because I’ve seen the proof of that with my own eyes. When they are worn properly, they are effective. When they are worn below your nose and on your chin, they cease to be effective.

Many argue about the shot….I have no opinion. I have friends in the medical field getting it and I have family members getting it…and I will wait for the their expertise.

This year I have watched my daughter learn to cook, increase in her ability to be a fabulous artist. We have logged some serious math hours…as we have now jumped ahead a semester.

Our family has camped and hiked and kayaked and with the exception of the RV experience…has absolutely loved it.

We have enjoyed the state of Arkansas…and that’s pretty much as far as we have travelled this entire year…with the exception of January and February (the last time we were on a plane).

Tonight my mind won’t keep racing. Hoping I didn’t forget anything for Christmas…at work, my staff. Checking schedules and contests and making sure we have sufficient food for the two dinners we will have . Much smaller than in years past…but nevertheless, we must eat.

I refuse to look at next month. I refuse to worry about all the changes. I refuse to get bogged down with all the ugly that I see in this world. I refuse to give up. I feel that that is what so many are doing.

I to, have bad days…days I just don’t care anymore. Days I can’t think of one more positive spin to put on everything.

Truth is, I’m sick of not being able to travel. I’m sick of not being able to plan for the year. I’m ticked that my couch won’t be here for Christmas, and I’m sick of seeing how much money people have spent purchasing online instead of local businesses. Truth be told, I’m pretty steamed at people who continually are confused at why small businesses go out of business but go to the big box stores for inferior products…..and then bring it to my store for us to fix. 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️ I’m tired of seeing kids not being able to sit on Santa’s lap…instead they sit behind a glass screen. I’m tired of wearing masks and not being able to see people’s faces. I’m tired of not being able to hug people. I’m tired of not being able to clown. I’m tired of not being able to have people over to my house. I hate the word “virtual” and never want to hear it again. I despise the phrase “in this together”. And I think that as soon as this is over we never hear the words “cancelled, because of covid” ever again. I never want to hear the words “essential employees” and “non essential”. Don’t want to hear the word stimulus checks. I just want to hear: “Here is your couch! You can go to Morocco now! How about clowning around! And the entire neighborhood is coming over for dinner, and everyone needs a hug.”

We will get there someday….and me sitting here trying to “will” it to happen….won’t make it happen sadly. It will just mean that I will be one tired woman tomorrow.

I have a sign that I got from the one Christmas party we were able to go to this year…and the signs says “Give it to God, and go to sleep.”

Today….I tried to forget…tried to focus on the happy….and since we don’t have snow coming…I made my own…enjoy!

Hold on everyone! We are almost there!