Conquer

I think that is my word for the year. Who knows? I think sometimes it’s ok to let the year tell you how to change. After last year, I almost feel like it’s crazy to make a plan for the year because life can’t really be planned like it used to be anymore. I hope that someday that will change…but with this pandemic and the crazy of life…it just feels heavy and out of control.

Last year I think I can define as many have, as disappointing and learning to be flexible while slightly panicked. I also feel that for my family, my anxiety was for naught. God took care of our needs and a lot of our wants and we learned to be creative with travel.

Right now, there still seems to be this edge in the air that I actually thought would be dissipating, but it doesn’t seem to be happening. It seems to be just getting worse.

I cant change our country or the feelings that everyone seems to be feeling…but I can change me.

Tonight….as I worked out on a stair climber…I looked outside the huge windows of my gym and saw the most amazing sunset. It was as if God was wrapping His arms around me and saying He sees me…and He is the same today, tomorrow and forever .

I want to conquer so many things this year…but one of the biggest is fear and negative thoughts. Today, I heard some very hard news about my Dad. I was the comforter instead of him comforting me. All I could think of to make him feel better was take him by Chic Fil A. It worked! He was much happier when I dropped him off at home then he was in the neurologist office.

Life makes no promises on happiness. Today, I was grateful for cotton candy sunsets, chicken sandwiches and patient and caring nurses that take their jobs very seriously.

I am grateful for rowing machines that let me take out my aggressions on them as I continue to conquer my goal for 2021.

What is on your “conquer” list?