When You Cry

Last night, I stood in my living room as four of the most beautiful souls entered into it. It has been almost three years since we have seen them. It was eighteen months since we had seen them and then Covid hit, making another year go by.

When one of your besties moves to the other side of the world, it kind of becomes overwhelming. I’m not sure there are too many that found that this year was not overwhelming.

For those of you that know me…know that crying doesn’t come easily…and when I do cry…either I’m very angry…or someone is dying. I just don’t do it.

She hugged me, and I hugged her…and then I sobbed…like loud sobbing…

I didn’t realize how much I had missed her…how much I needed her touch and her hug. Our daughters giggled and smiled all night long…finally together again and our husbands talked well into the late evening.

Friends are important…friends are what keeps us grounded and keeps us pushing onward. When we don’t have that support group anymore…we begin to lose our zest for life. Negative thoughts can go unchecked because we have no one else to share our opinions with. We have slowly and carefully began to go into friend groups again…with great caution.

The hardest part of covid has been the part you can’t see. The part that makes us human…the part that makes all of life worth it. The smiles you give to another, a kind word, a compliment. You never see these things in the animal world…they don’t say to each other that they are having an awesome hair day. This is only a human attribute that we are greatly lacking right now because we have been doing our best to keep everyone as safe as possible…but in that…we have lost touch with one another.

Even though I own a business, work out safely at a gym, attend a church with a mask mandate as well…and see lots of people…I still miss that human touch. That hug, that special smile…and I had no idea until she hugged me and the tighter she hugged me the more I cried…because I was so I overwhelmed at finally being able to see her. There’s just something about someone who knows all your dirt…the good and the bad of you. No need to explain yourself because she already knows…that can’t be bought…that can’t be explained.

I pray as the vaccines start rolling out, and as we all begin to recover slowly…that everyone will take extra time for the hugs…and the tears…because they will come…and they will surprise you…but that’s ok…let them come!