Today the sun was shining, the snow is melting and I was finally able to wash my disgusting car. There were donuts at the meeting and my green tea latte was perfection.
I had another meeting and continue dealing with a mess that I’m near the end of dealing with and that makes my heart even happier…but I am weary. After the meeting I headed to the gym…kind of angry…
I was angry my dad is dealing with dementia and how it’s affecting all that love him, and I was mad that I was still cleaning up messes of others, and I really wish there were consequences for those that are irresponsible. It feels the buck always stops with me.
As I sat down at the rowing machine, I didn’t want to start..:I was defeated before I began…and then…I said…I’m doing it…I’m going to do it today.
For five weeks I have tried to row three miles in thirty minutes…and I have failed every week. I’ve gotten close but never succeeded….until today! Today I was angry and sad…and I took out my frustrations on a rowing machine…and walked away quite happy!! Success!!!
Life is difficult…right now all of us are managing life at different difficulties. I’m not aware of too many people that aren’t struggling one way or the other. Covid has been hard…continues to be a struggle, and we all are just done.
Sometimes, we need to let go…and do something fun…and that’s what I did. I came home and tried on my new overalls for my clown costume and put it all together…and for my dog to join in on the fun!
Go do something fun and out of the ordinary…and make someone smile! We can do this!!!
The Reluctant Red Nose 