Faithful to Complete It

Today was a busy day…and I was grateful for it.

I continue to appreciate those that have given me the opportunity for the blessing it is to have a tiny part in helping lead our congregation in worship. Something I said I would never do….I now find myself renewed in doing.

Today, for the first time in a year I was able to clown. I didn’t clown long…just a short time. I like to keep them wanting more ya know! But that laughter…and giggling…was balm to my soul. It had been so long since we have touched one another or hugged…yet alone laugh. To be able to have my girl with me was icing on the cake.

I have been damaged, like so many of us have. It has taken years to reinvent myself. To build myself up from the damage and lies that we’re told to me by those who honestly felt they were doing the right thing.

Being told I was worthless, stupid, not college material. Being told I would never amount to anything, that I wasn’t talented in any way shape or form. That I would never have a degree, not be successful…but if I tried real hard I might get married and have children. I wasn’t told I was beautiful until the day of my “second marriage” by someone who should have told me that my entire life.

It was the weeks that followed my first husbands death that I wrestled with God. I fought with Him for weeks. I told him how I always had tried to be “good”. Always follow what He had asked of me…and this is how He rewards me?

I learned that those rules and regulations I followed were not all “from Him.” Many of them were not what God wanted. God requires a life of service and devotion to Him. He requires a life of moral living yes…but that doesn’t always require a knee length hemline or a pair of awful culottes. It requires righteous living with a heart for the unrighteous. It requires a way of living that is quite frankly…a little terrifying.

It is scary to say to God…”use me how you would like.” I wrestled with Him for months on this…

Now I can’t imagine life without it.

I like to say never about lots of things…and I’ve been proven wrong every time. The keyboard playing is the latest string of “never” Phrases that I have been proven wrong again and again.

As far as the professor who told me I would never graduate from college. I did…I have an Associates Degree. I could go back for one semester and get my Bachelors degree…but no thanks. I also have my GIA AJP from Jewelry…which stands for Assistant Jewelry Professional and I’m considering more classes as well. I will say, all the teachers that called me a class clown…I guess they were indeed correct.

Whatever He calls you to….He will give you the power to get it done….no matter what they say…

“He who began a good work in you, will be faithful to complete it.”