I’ve had three days off….and for three days it has rained. Tomorrow, I go back to work….and it will be gorgeous…and that’s how I’m feeling today…behind…and dragging and missing the sunshine no matter where I stand.
No one likes to be an Eyore, but sometimes it’s needed. After a glorious Easter Sunday…my sons car decided that this year…not next…it may or may not need a new transmission…no one knows. Because his car is fickle…and can’t decide if it really wants to die or not.
We decided to replace two store phones. They were so old that they were starting not to work well and when I say old…they were 7 plus. That’s super old. It’s been nothing but a nightmare…so far we are up to three hours on the phone with customer service and it still can not send a picture 🥴 awesome!
The list is a mile long….but I will spare you the boring details. This is when I start to flounder. I’m ok through the really big stuff…but all this little stuff…it just about does me in. Can no one do a good job anymore? Must I rely on no one but myself to make sure something is done and is done correctly? Is it too hard to do anything right now?
I am exhausted…almost fell asleep while driving my daughter to rollerskating with her homeschool friends. Can I also say that since we have all been quarantined we have the lowest immunity. My daughter has already had strep throat and we have just begun!
I am tired but I slept well and have slept well at night. I’ve even taken cat naps thinking that would make things better. I’ve stayed away from the news…I have been working out and staying busy…but I still can’t shake it…this deep sadness with how overwhelming life is.
This is when I start to retreat. I start withdrawing…because I can’t stand to be a “Debby Downer.” I want to be happy and laughing and cracking jokes. I have no intention of being vulnerable and crying in front of you. Perhaps I just need chocolate and a good Cadbury egg with a Netflix movie and no one bothers me for two hours. Is that even possible? I do not think it is!
When I feel this way…I need to go water my plants….go to the things where my people are and sit. I need to turn off the noise and turn on the praise music and know that God has even these little things. These pointless irritations. I have to sit with His people and listen. No matter how badly I don’t want to… no matter how much I just want a nap. Go where the people are! Go get a Venti or a large…or whatever you need…and put your big girl pants on and hop to it.
The Reluctant Red Nose 