Faithful

Wow! What a week! I’m sitting here blogging, trying to get my mind to calm down after an amazing crazy Chiefs game. I actually had a heart rate of 98….which is normally what it gets up to when I work out (if that tells you anything)

My son won free tickets to tonight’s game so I’m also waiting up to hear from him that he made it back to his college town safely…even though he’s 22….I still worry.

This week I started running a fever Monday night…I knew I had a sinus infection. Could not get my fever to stop, and went to the doctor. I knew I didn’t have Covid…because I literally had sinus pressure and runny nose and watery eyes. I had a fever like I always get…because I always get a sinus infection. To be safe I took a Covid rapid test….negative…still everyone told me I had Covid.

Two days pass…my nose quits running…and my eyes are not watering…still have pressure in my sinuses…still am running a fever. If it were not for the fever I would have gone back to work..but against my wishes I went to the doctor.

Upon entering my doctors office where sick people are I might add, there are signs posted everywhere that a mask is required. However, two years in, there are still people who believe they are above rules…and an older gentleman (who was a St Louis Cardinals fan) decided to have his mask down to his chin. Yes, he did…in a doctors office where sick people are…I coughed on him as I walked by (ok I did not…but inside my head I did).

As I walked to the room where the doctor would address me I started having a conversation with the nurse…he told me he just got over the same thing he suspected that I had. He finishes, and in comes the doctor…she is sure I have Covid (here we go again)….after a stern conversation with her…and after she goes through my symptoms and finds out they I’m triple vaxxed and have also had my flu shot…take vitamins and wear a mask in public. I also have taken a Covid test and have literally only one symptom….a fever…she relented. She still told me to take a Covid test…which I did….and it was once again….negative.

It was a frustrating week of having to stay at home….getting nothing done and finding myself in the middle of a home repair that had to be done as well. I was snot covered…dust covered…and everything felt like it was falling apart. The only thing I did somewhat well was homeschool…from the couch. I felt like everyone I met I let down.

Covid is a terrible and scary thing. I have people that I know that have died from it. However, regardless of your stance on vaccines or mask wearing…can we all just quit with blanket statements. I was told so many times I had Covid…and it truly was annoying. I knew I didn’t feel differently from any other sinus infection I have ever had…I knew my body…and I knew I didn’t have it. Still, everywhere I went….everyone had something to say.

Here’s my point: even if I did have Covid….I realized how lonely getting Covid must be. The doctors have really nothing to help you, or advice to give you. They just want to stamp your chart with Covid and move you along. I had to fight to be heard…what if I was the quiet type or elderly…would I have still been heard? Had I not been married I would not have even gone…because I hate going to the doctor…so if I was single…I would have not gone.

Everyone was scared to be around me…I slept in a separate room from my husband. I didn’t come close to anyone…I wore a mask in the car with my daughter…it was a very scary time. I haven’t been to see my parents because until today I was still contagious.

I have just hated this week. Hated how people treated me, how doctors treated me…and how lonely it all felt..

I told the doctor, that I missed the days of being “normal sick”. Don’t you?

Through it all…God always shows up….

My doctor did listen to me….my kitchen is 90 percent complete. Another project that has bothered me will be started soon. my beloved Chiefs won in a game that will be talked about for years. I had someone who played for me today in church with hardly any notice and did a beautiful job. My husband was so amazing and caring even though he has an insane schedule…our store did survive without me….

A dinner was brought to my house at the perfect time. The blessings are there to be seen…if we will only look to see them…He is faithful…even when I am not.