Irritations

I have nothing to complain about….but I truly seem to find a way to do so.

My children are healthy. My house is warm, my car runs…and even my dog seems to find contentment in the ordinary.

However, certain times I find myself overwhelmed at irritations.

Real people in the real world having huge issues…their country being ravaged by war…but me…I’m upset about my grocery store not having Dot’s Pretzels and my nail breaking…requiring a trip to my fabulous nail lady.

I find myself overwhelmed with a vey busy store and wanting more staff. I find myself irritated at people who continually complain about winter in the winter…..no worries…I will do the same for summer.

I find myself comparing myself to others and finding myself falling short…my work, my efforts don’t begin to measure up…

Why is it that I find myself able to jump the huge hurdles of life with determination and strength…but the little things of life…I find myself not wanting to keep going.

I don’t want to fix one more problem, find one more solution, or have to listen to one more complaint. I don’t want to fix anything else..pay anymore bills…clean any messes up…or package anything else.

I want to just sit in the quiet. Find the simple…and enjoy things that bring me joy.

The smell of fresh baked bread, soap making…my fingers playing piano keys…and the beauty of plants. I need to see new things and experience life from a different perspective

But somehow…that will have to wait and I will have to figure out how to jump the small hurdles of life with the same determination as I do the big ones.

Perhaps I can go through those hurdles because others come alongside us when we seem to go through the “big” ones and not so much the little ones. Perhaps we keep the “little” ones to ourselves…we don’t want to look weak…we want to appear that we have it all under control.

Covid taught us how to wait…how to set our expectations lower. It taught us how to handle disappointment and setbacks. It taught us how to think outside the box…and how much we truly need one another. It didn’t necessarily make us WANT those things…but we learned that’s what we had do or we would go crazy.

I am thankful for plans that get to happen…and days that are normal…because duringCovid, we learned how quickly “normal” can be gone.

May you learn to jump the hurdles of “irritations” better than I…and May we learn…that snowfalls are not always bad things….