Red Nose Day

If I would have had my way….today would have been spent wearing this….

But alas, I own a fine jewelry store..and we do have to be serious.

I did appreciate my staff humoring me this morning at our weekly meeting…:

The past two years have been horrible for all of us. We all have long, sad stories of how we have suffered. Some have had their businesses struggle, many families missed so many family members..:education…you name it. The hardest part for me…was not being able to don the red nose.

It truly was so depressing. I had no idea my soul needed it so much.

Getting to finally be able to go back to the retirement homes…they asked me where I had been…why was I gone so long…and then when Covid numbers climbed again, I was made to not be able to visit again…it was so hard.

Life is so uncertain…I have no idea what the future holds…but for the next few months at least…it holds clowning…and I’m here for it.

I’m married to a man who is brilliant. He truly is. He is amazing at guitar…amazing jewelry designer, and so incredibly intelligent. He has a great sense of humor..he’s tall and he can pretty much do anything he puts his mind to.

I am the opposite of all those things…my clown life and my real life usually shadow one another…the crazy things that happen to me in real life are easily transferred to my clown character…it rarely is on purpose.and those who have watched it happen can testify to this.

In high school and college I had severe anxiety because of this….in my 30’s I started to embrace it gradually…by my 40’s I accepted it. I will never be this sophisticated lady…no matter how hard I try and how much I concentrate. I will be the person that falls up the stairs on air…trips over her own feet…and forgets to take out her headphones before walking off the stage (ask me how I know this). This is me….and I try to embrace it…but sometimes it can lead to depression…I was built to make people laugh…but somedays…I’d like to be the smart one in the room…the one that is looked up to….

I try to remember that everyone has gifts…mine are different than others…

So if you see me out clowning….I’d appreciate a laugh and a smile….and know…that when you do…that just makes me feel like a million bucks and the most talented clown in all the land!