I should be sleeping….but I’m still mad at the events of the day. I slept in until 7:30 today, instead of getting up and going to the gym and working out. Today was my one day with no plans and I could just relax and I did…and it was a mistake.
We had one appointment today and that appointment went not the way I would have wanted…and I was treated very rudely. It set me off for the entire day.
The weather is annoying…so cold, windy…and doesn’t feel like spring. Little irritations occurring…and I confess….I melted down.
My melt downs vary. Sometimes I’m dramatic and crying (I usually blame those on hormones). Other times I get mad and need to go take out my frustrations on a rowing machine…other days like today….I am…Eyore. Let me tell ya, I was “Eyoreing” (not really a word I know) with the best of them.
A project I want done right now I can’t get done because I’m married to a perfectionist. Cakes I ordered have a delivery time issue. People are wanting me to help with things I cannot and said I could not…but yet…still expect me to do. Last but not least my firstborn son is leaving….he’s moving on….and I’m just not ready…but I have to be.
Nothing I went through today is a true crisis…nothing.
I find that this is when I struggle. I struggle to move past these things. I take hateful comments so personally. I wish I could just brush it off but I can’t…I feel it so deeply.
I hope and pray that someday the little irritations of life will just be little instead of making them so big…
I sometimes wish I could just stay at home and not have to talk with anyone on these kind of days….but sadly….that cannot happen.
Hoping for a better day tomorrow….chin up!
The Reluctant Red Nose 