Rest

Today I was supposed to get rest, and be rejuvenated but that didn’t happen…I had big plans for today…I could tell you that’s life…but it seems it’s been happening every three weeks for the course of two years…and it’s time for a change.

Owning a business is hard…but it can also be very rewarding it enables me to do things that most people don’t get to do.

It’s gotten my big clown foot in the door at many schools and retirement homes….

It has allowed me to continue my obsession with decor and also soap making. I enjoy baking bread and cooking….and I have been able to do all these things and more and for that I am grateful.

Sometimes though in life…we need to change our focus…we need to make hard decisions…and that’s what my husband and I have done lately…make some really hard decisions that don’t feel good…but will be good.

For the good of our family and our mental health these changes will be put into place in the next four weeks….our hope is that these changes will bring a more predictable schedule for everyone involved, and we hope that plans for extracurricular activities can now be planned for.

With these changes, my husband and I hope to be able to concentrate on our activities that drive us to be creative individuals that are able to focus on the important planning aspects of what makes our business unique. Our business continues to grow…and we must make some hard changes to make it continue.

Over the last two weeks I was asked point blank what makes me happy? And I had to sit and ponder it for a long time….

What brings me great joy is to play keyboard in front of my congregation. The singing of my church family almost brings me to my knees every time.

The second thing that brings me joy is homeschooling my daughter. Doing science projects and writing assignments and all the things…violin and art classes….

The third thing that brings me joy is work in my community…clowning, other committees all of those things….

The fourth thing that brings me joy is our business and learning all those things that make our business unique….

What can rob your joy is the mundane parts of business…getting caught up in the grind of your business that shouldn’t even be something you are left with worrying about. Finding dependable and reliable people that show up and do their job without you having to babysit them is what can make or break you…and finding people like that can be hard to find….

We are lucky to have a good team of people…and I’m grateful for each and everyone of them. We are grateful to have a consultant who can look at our business from the outside and let us know what is no longer working and what must change…someone who sees a bigger vision.

So for now as my anxiety is through the roof…and my creativity is plummeting…and my fitness routine is completely gone…house is becoming shambles and house projects are once again put off….I am resting in the fact that change can be good…and growing pains can turn into beautiful things….