Let’s Be Real

My blog lately has seemed like an informal book of what is a recipe for a day in the life. I give you what happened…and offer no narrative.

I’m exhausted…I’m exhausted mentally, physically and I’m in between wanting to watch a movie marathon and nap all day…to wanting to go camping and hike and fish…o can’t decide which one. I cry probably once a day…but it’s for things I can’t control. Last week I cried while watching a video of little kids seeing Santa for the first time. Why did they make me cry? Because I realize my kids will never be little again. Do I want them to be little and go through the teen years again? Absolutely not!!! However, my fave days were the days that all the adult kids were in my house and the last few nights were fabulous listening to them talk to each other…and laugh. Then I cry again…but these are happy tears…because they really do love each other. But then I’m sad for my youngest because now she’s all alone with her boring parents.

I’m overwhelmed with work as I get ready next week to do inventory and take down all the Christmas decor…pay all the bills for all the things. I’m overwhelmed at switching my home decor to winter and Valentine’s Day. My house is a dumpster fire and I would like nothing more than a day to purge and clean with no Interference from my better half…

I need to make soap, make bread….finish my last painting project and my last wallpaper project….and just be still. I need to purge and be quiet…get rid of excess and plan the year….

I’ve made appointments for Red Nose Readers which is giving me life…and I hope to make more appointments soon.

We hope to travel to Greece this year….more fishing and camping…and hopefully start to go biking when we go camping….

If you are where I am right now….offer yourself some grace….take one day at a time. Start getting your hands into things that bring you peace. Writing and playing keyboard…making bread and making soap bring such a calm to me…

So let the hush come to you…wave the busy goodbye…form a new plan for the new year…slow life down for a bit….and just let the world go by…