Today my dizziness is back….I am just thankful that I got through two services… so played today and I was grateful because one of them is my absolute fave song.
I made it through my first week of radiation. I was a little red and had some shooting pain which the Oncologist said is perfectly normal. Having some issues with my left arm being numb, pain in my shoulder due to how I have to lay my arm during radiation and still worried about swelling. I’ve been having g to make myself sit down and rest….and I really want to go go go.
I have one more project to get to before we head into summer. I also have to do Ellie’s grades and post those and refresh her transcript. We haven’t got her DL yet but that’s not her fault….just circumstances right now.
In my journey of health struggles and cancer and all these things, I am once again reminded of how things come across to people.
I know that there are things I have completely decided to change how I will approach this with others in the future. I appreciate people praying for me…and I appreciate people telling me they are as well. I kept thinking during church today what exactly God would like us to expand that. I believe He of course wants us to pray….but I think He wants us to do more than that. Those they tell me they are praying for me….but then ask me how I am doing. How is radiation going? How are you feeling? Are you tired?
It doesn’t have to be a gift….just a text….a conversation….a little conversation….a silly text…a hug…a compliment. In thinking about this I realized how I myself do this poorly.
I never tell people I am praying for them until I actually do….but I feel that extra step is what God means when He says “share one another’s burdens.”
Having a friend make this meme for me this week made my heart soo happy….
Having a nurse hug me and tell me I’m a sweetheart kept me singing through the rest of radiation.
Having ny fellow band members give me the fist bump after playing today….
All these things that we do to each other and for each other help us through the days that are so tough we don’t want to try anymore.
Life will always have burdens, there will always be struggles and there will always be a time when we feel that the bad times will never be over….the valleys grow deeper, the mountains grow higher….the depths become more vast…and I feel that I may never recover…but the days of struggle will be over. We will invite the mess, the ugly, the scars…the changes….and what once seemed overwhelming…..we will be able to look back at it with nothing more than a nod….
I made it through that…I almost went under…still I rise…..
The Reluctant Red Nose 