Here We Are Again

We are back from a four day camping trip….it was hot but beautiful

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We were grateful for air at night….grateful for water hookups and grateful for electricity. We had absolutely no WiFi and it was good and bad….

Good because we could talk and relax…play games. And because we use our phones for reading and news and google and maps and all sorts of things…but it was nice to be able to unplug.

My lymphedema acted up due to the heat but not too bad…

Today I do not feel well. The medicine is working on my hormones so my cycle is cycling with a new vengeance I haven’t experienced since the age of 12. I slept for two hours today…and I needed it.

As I write this my living room and garage are littered with camping gear. We are trying to downsize our camping gear but so far we have only managed to make our house and our camper a disaster!

My father is having issues again…was found wandering the streets again this morning….

At church I started crying….thinking about how he was once again alone…grateful no one hit him…

I do not want to live in a world where he is no longer here….but I also don’t want him sad and confused and wish I could make him better….

This year has been unbelievably hard….and it seems to be the same for everyone I meet.

So for today….I am grateful for friends and lovely meals together. I am grateful for air conditioning. I am grateful for my children being safe…and I am grateful for my Dad…still with us.

I am hopeful tomorrow is a better day.