August 5th

Tomorrow is the day I hate more than any date in the entire world….

August 5,2002….my life changed forever.

I married a man who I adored….and thought there was no one on this planet who could have been luckier….but sometimes this world is full of nothing but lies and it destroys everything that is good….

I will not go into detail about my first husband….it has been forgiven….we have moved on. I no longer fixate on the pain he caused…it is finished.

August 5,2002 after two years of separation my husband Ron was killed in a car accident. I was able to say goodbye before he passed. I was able to tell him I loved him and kiss him. Then…he went to heaven.

The night before he died he sang the song “I can Only Imagine.” We played that at his funeral….and 22 years later that song is still being played. Every time I hear it I wink up to heaven and say…yes…only you would pick a song still being sung 22 years later.

We had a son…who is now a man….and I can’t get over how he looks like him…has the same mannerisms that are just in his chemical makeup but also has the mannerisms of the father who raised him.

I was a lucky girl….my parents helped me while I was a single mother….and I feel lucky that my son had people to step in the gaps.

I remarried in late 2003….and he asked no questions…he accepted the responsibility. Was he perfect? Absolutely not….but we are grateful for his direction and leading.

They have similar build…they walk the same…and many people who don’t know the story have no idea that Trey is adopted by my husband.

God does little things like that….

Trey and I talk about how weird things happen and he feels like he has a super guardian angel…I feel the same….I again, wink up to heaven.

I don’t like August 5th….this year I am surrounding myself with a hobby that gives me amazing joy…surrounded by people who love me and understand me. I have never needed anything more.

I will always wonder what life would have been like if there wasn’t that car accident….but I know…all things happen for a reason….and some day….the why will be answered.

Until then….keep moving….one foot in front of the other. Do NOT give up…do NOT stop.