Decades

This year we knew we had to celebrate….

We had my husband turning 60 and I turned 50 this year..::my stepdaughter 30. My Dad turned 90 and if my mother n law was still with us she would have been 100.

We wanted simple….we wanted just family…we didn’t want a huge fuss….just a little fuss.

I decided we all need balloons for our ages…

We all brought our favorite cake or pie…brought our pictures of childhood or baby…or whatever we wanted….

Because I am tired…I had a local caterer that I adore where they drop off and set everything up and then they come and get everything….and I love them….

This week was tiring ….I went with my sister to see my Dad….right now he has a huge fascination with his wallet….I don’t know why….when I opened it o found pictures of my mother…..

I asked my Dad who that was….without hesitation he said my Mothers name.

Life….I feel at times I am going to go under.

I keep hearing people that have quit taking their medicine for cancer and it came back….

I sometimes feel invisible and wonder if I should keep trying….is there any point?

I try to fill my jar as completely full as I can….hoping that I can distract myself from things that terrify me…and I wonder what the point is.

Sometimes I would like to go live in a little cabin in the woods….and the only thing that can find me is the Amazon Prime truck….so I can make soap and plant flowers….😬

I know I would be lonely quickly….but it would be fun to try for awhile.

This week we start back to school and all those activities…..

Quiet won’t find me for long….