Cloudy Skies They Clear Up

Today I took my dog Ozzie to the groomer….that resulted in four dogs, two cats…all barking…hissing at each other…but we all survived…and that made me think about us as humans…growling and hissing at each other. Fear of the unknown…but then finally figuring out that cats are ok…I guess🥴.

I returned home with a Starbucks Matcha that I used my stars for…and I was heavy hearted…a lot is going on and my heart is so heavy.

When I can’t make things better…I decided to do some things that I haven’t in awhile….

I made some soap…

Isn’t it funny how when your hands are busy, your mind goes to happier places….

I decided to try a new flour in my sourdough…we will see if that works…

Picked some of my flowers and cleaned…

I decided to also go big and clown….There is an event I’m going to that is a fundraiser for a charity they they asked me to clown at awhile ago…I was going to go real lite…but sometimes in life….we need to go big…we need to push ourselves past the comfort zone. I find such freedom when doing that!

I cannot control the mean things people say about me, or to me…or behind my back…but I can control making people laugh.

I can’t change circumstances or I would in a heartbeat, but I can make you think of something else for a moment. I can make you laugh…

I have walked the death of a spouse, breast cancer, and now aging parents….and there is no quick fix. There’s no “getting over it” you have to deal with the new reality each day. It isn’t fair…it will never feel “right”. The ache will lessen but never leave….

The hardest part of being an adult is learning that this is not a race you can stop…you can’t quit the race….you don’t have to keep running…you can walk or jog…you can skip….you can even stomp (somedays I prefer that). You cannot quit…life is a race and none of us know where our finish line is…

I hope when I die you smile when you think of me…I hope you wear a clown nose and laugh on days you don’t feel like it…and I hope that on days you feel like stomping…you remember that you didn’t quit…even though you wanted to.