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Today I was able to stay home the entire day and complete projects and work from home and it was as absolutely divine as you can imagine. I was even able to finally get back on my rowing machine today and that felt really good to do.

We had an extremely busy weekend but absolutely all good things. The week was busy with three separate doctor appointments and then followed by a test that was a piece of cake but still nerve wracking….then I was able to have some fun.

I clowned at a huge Carnival for a local school and did a ton of balloons and I loved it soo much.

Then the next morning we walked for the Paint the Parkway Pink walk and I was able to walk with friends and family….

It was nice to walk with my sister….we did this walk back in 2012 for her right after she had finished chemo..

It felt odd this year to be given a survivor bag….and I looked out at the crowd of women carrying the same bag. It gave me hope….but it made me sad that so many women have suffered but so thankful we are all still here.

That night we went to a wedding of one of our staff members and it was lovely to be together outside of work.

Today felt weird….as happy as I was to have beautiful weather and a day to accomplish all I wanted with no appointments, my heart is heavy for the people who live in the areas that I loved and lived as a college kid. My heart has been heavy….and my prayers go out to my dear friends that live in Florida and I am praying that this storm just veers away….and my friends will be safe and sound.

It felt weird just doing normal things like making ghosts for my front porch ….but I know I can’t do anything but pray.

I think the hardest part of trials is when you watch someone else walk it….I always want to take away the pain of others (well most people). I can’t stand to see people suffer.

When I walk through a trial it’s one thing but to watch others do it is completely different.

I feel all of us are in this position right now…no matter if it’s a hurricane you are living through or a loss of a job, a sudden serious illness, a parent who is failing in health….a child who is sick….we all play this game… it is called life.

We are all incredibly strong….and we can do incredibly hard things.

My father is dying….my time with him is short….

But I can still clown at a carnival and make kiddos smile….