Donut Dash

Saturday, I walked with a friend of mine for my fave 5K of the year.

It is absolutely my favorite race to run. It is a very hard course.::with brutal hills…in years past I have run/walked….but this year we ran down one hill…and walked the rest….it took one hour to complete. Back when I ran a lot…most of my 5Ks were around 30 minutes…but that was then.

The day was lovely….my Louie won a prize for best dressed pet….and even though I wanted a donut very much at the end…I resisted.

There are days that I want to be done taking this cancer drug….I say things to myself like “am I really living?” I am soo tired and my body just hurts all the time.

My husband tells me to stretch….I try to tell him that the drug makes your body ache…and no stretch is going to fix it!

I hate the way I feel…I hate the way it hurts and how hard my body has to work to just do the things I used to.

But somehow….this life is worth being here for….

Life is better than a donut….it is better than sugar in my coffee.

Seeing the sun come up over my city on a lovely walk through downtown is absolutely better.

All the adventures of life are better….

How do you move past the pain when you have always been able to function with no issues whatsoever? I am still learning….

I will keep pushing….it will get better…I must believe it.

We will beat this one way or the other!