Recovery

I hear it everywhere right now….its like I keep asking God and He is now screaming….yes!

For fifteen years I have given to my community and given. I have worked in places where many don’t want to go…I have witnessed the lonely light up when a clown comes to play! I’ve heard stories of heartache because my nose felt like a safe place to tell. I have watched humanity from behind my red nose.

I have practiced and worked on keyboard to play in front of a co creation of over 500 for more Sundays than I can count. I have enjoyed hearing the people of God sing….the first time I almost fell down behind my keyboard…it is a humbling experience to bring the church to the throne of God and I never took it lightly.

Last year cancer came….I dealt with it….and I struggled with it….and now…I am still struggling.

There are seasons in life….and right now the season I am in is to be still. That is a very hard place to be. The focus is on me and my health and that feels weird.

Letting dust form on furniture….not putting g my clothes away immediately….there may be a day that the bed isn’t made and that feels weird.

Today our Pastor even talked about Resting and Recovering….that it’s important to rest….to be still and listen.

So, this year my theme has been Recover. As I work on my physical body and my spiritual body I hope to make them both whole again. I hope that my physical body will be strong and back to where it was before cancer.

I am reading through the Bible this year….determined to do it. I am walking or working out on the rower. I am reading and doing embroidery….I am fully embracing gardening this year….

Thursday I head to my oncologist….hoping he can help with my most recent ailment….for now…I am resting in the quiet and the slower pace of life.