Update

Life has been crazy….and I have grown weary.

My medicine has affected my moods greatly and my Oncologist suggested a new med to help with my current med. when I started the new medicine it took away my appetite completely. I lost seven pounds the first week I was on it. I am continuing to lose weight because my appetite is gone…that really is not a bad thing.

Now this week after returning from travel my lymphedema seems to be coming back full force.

We went to my favorite work trip this week in beautiful Tucson!

I will not tell you that flying this time was easy after the horrible accident with American Airlines and the Blackhawk helicopter. I have always been a nervous flyer but lately I have calmed down a little bit that did not help this time.

Upon return my left arm has really been hurting and I find myself exhausted once again.

I wish my body would do what I need it to but I don’t see that happening any time soon.

I find myself still melancholy

Clowning which would always get me out of my funk I am no longer interested in….which really confuses me….its always been such a part of me for the past 18 years and now all the sudden I find myself in need of being cheered up…in need of laughter.

A hacker got into my Facebook and my Instagram causing me to completely be off Facebook. I have no intention of returning ever. I had three Instagram accounts and lost all of those along with pictures and trips and all the projects that I have done over the years. I now have a small one and that suits me just fine.

Since I’ve pretty much taken myself off social media I am now on my fifth book since the beginning of the year….and I am reading through the Bible and catching up on house projects. I believe this will be a game changer. I very much dislike not knowing what is going on in peoples lives….but I don’t miss the absolute waste of time Facebook is and all the pettiness that exists on Facebook.

So this year my theme continues…..Recovery…..and I can’t say it isn’t a change….but it’s been a big change.

I’ve always served and given in such a great capacity and to go down to zero is beyond weird…but I believe it is greatly needed.

My family needs me and my body is ready for recovery.