Peace

This morning as I walked my Ozzie I thought about it….tried to imagine it surrounding me, almost like a cozy blanket.

I drove with my car down the parkway, the leaves are starting to change….I want to close my eyes and really feel the anxiety fall away.

The phone calls updating me on health concerns. The Nursing home stating what recent shenanigans my Mother has found herself in. My son sending me a pic of something that makes my heart stop…with the words written under it “I am fine!”

My store calling asking a question….a vendor didn’t receive the check we mailed….a client wants a refund because back in 1972 we fixed a ring and now in 2025 the ring has issues with the prongs.

Rude things people say….gossip that never stops….and I just want to put my head in the water and never come back up. Just disappear where there is no music, no conversation…just quiet….because right now I cannot hear anymore.

I say “no worries” multiple times a day when all I feel is more worry…more tension.

I go to the retirement home and my Mom asks me to get my Dad and I so wish I could….

I can’t get on social media without hate being spewed on one another and I feel this old mean world just might do me in.

I don’t have a solution anymore….I don’t have any advice …I guess just being around those who are kind and compassionate.

Everyday, I find myself longing for peace….

I have witnessed mean girls coming into my store they will not speak to me or look at me….hate laid at my feet….and I want to get into my car and drive away…..

Then, an older lady battling cancer reaches her hand out and lays it on mine and thanks me for being kind to her. Another lady compliments my style….and I realized something.

There will always be mean spirited people who want nothing more than for you to fail in life. They have only hate in their heart, and just want you to be miserable like them. They want nothing more than to stop you from succeeding, stop you from being a light. They are covered in hatred…and nothing you do will ever change that.

I heard this quote today: “

So show up and be who you are….the haters will just be miserable together….

And I have to much to do to be concerned with the opinions of mean girls.