We went into Christmas wanting to do things a little differently. Since I got rid of quite a lot of decor we had decided to get a real tree….this will make me sound ancient…..however, when I was younger, trees were like $34….and apparently…..while I was sleeping apparently….they are now $180??? What????
So, we went down to our local Walmart and found a lovely tree that lights up and my dogs don’t drink the water. On our way to pick it out we passed the Christmas candy and my husband pointed to cordial cherries…..and right there….I started to tear up. I always buy my Dad cordial cherries and always have since I was a very little girl. It was our thing….and now…it isn’t.
Somedays grief hits you so hard it feels the wind knocks you over….but you have to get back up….
I went to see my Mom and eat Thanksgiving dinner and she had to be reminded who I was…that was a first….she has always known me..and she kept telling me thanks for coming to her birthday…
Life is heavy….but life can be beautiful. I find comfort in what a blessed childhood I had….I find rest in knowing I will be with both of them again…and they will know my name.
Somedays when I am very sad and discouraged…..the songs from my Dads funeral will play….and an ice cream truck will be in front of me…and I smile….because I do believe in angels watching over us…and I have a few watching over me…..
So this year my decor looks a little different….but my heart is a little heavier than it once was.
The Reluctant Red Nose 