When Heaven Calls Us

This time seven years ago…all in the same week…my grandmother died, my husbands mother died, and my dad had a heart attack.

I will never ever forget many things that occurred in the room where my mother n law went to be with Jesus. I can still hear my sister n law, whisper to her mother…”thanks for being my mom.” My sister n law…always…knows just what to say…just at the right moment…and she knew she didn’t have a lot of time…but that’s what she wanted her mother to know…for always…until we meet again.

I know a lot of people right now…who have been given a sentence…where they have an idea of when they are going…and it’s sooner than they would like.

I had a dream the other day…that I went to the doctor…alone…and received the same news as so many have…and what my reaction would be….

I’ve thought about it a lot as I have watched two sisters battle breast cancer, and another have numerous visits with her doctor over biopsies….and I think everyone has a different response.

I would like to think that I would just get in my car and drive…drive to the nearest Starbucks and grab my favorite drink…my favorite dessert…go spend the money on a purse I wanted…or go eat a juicy steak…I would like to think, I would grab my husband and family and grab our passports and go and see things we’ve never seen. I think I would wait to tell them…so that everyone wouldn’t look at me with “that look”….ugh…I hate that look of pity.

I would like to think I would plan a reunion with old friends that I haven’t seen in 20 years…and new friends that I haven’t seen in a few years. I would like to think I would have lots of coffee dates and lunch dates.

I would like to think I would spend days and days with my daughter and whisper in her ear all the things I wish I would have known.

Hug my son close and tell him how much he means to me…and make him really hear it.

Sit with my husband and let him finish his songs that he’s been writing for years…and listen to each and every one of them.

I would like to think that I could go and clown at all the places I ❤️ to clown at…as many times as I could.

I wish that I could sit with my sisters…and my nieces and nephews…and just talk…and listen to their laughter…and really…their screaming😬😬😬😬.

I would like to dance with my husband…and not care how stupid I look…wear a sleeveless dress without making one comment about the shape of my arms…

I would like to sit by the beach and hear the ocean waves…and the seagulls…and not worry about getting a sunburn.

I would like to listen to all my favorite songs without having to listen to someone else’s favorite songs 😬😬😬. I would like control of the remote…and a self cleaning kitchen.

I would like to carefully speak my words, instead of speaking them in anger…and leaving others with that as the last thought of me.

I would like to not be forgotten…to be remembered for laughter…for thoughtfulness…for love….and most importantly, that everyone that knew me…knew that I mattered to them….

And so today…and all the days…I will do my best…to make that list a reality.