Sunday found me sour….I’m not sure if your familiar with that term or not…but basically it means that you need to have some chocolate and be thrown into a room all by yourself.
It all started by a big Ford truck that almost ran over me on my way to church….then some very disappointing and sad news during church….and I just was…undone. Later in the day, we were with loved ones who were again…negative…and that made me…just want to curl up on my couch and take the worlds longest nap….so instead…I took a pretty long nap….and then my husband suggested this….
Something about being around nature….watching the amazing phenomenon of the birds coming in for spring…spring….renew…made new…alive…restored.
Spring brings allergies, and bugs…but it brings green grass, clean cars, and everyone able to walk outside. It brings yard work and gardens, and warm nights…it brings new life…and promises of new beginnings…
This year has been and will be a difficult year for so many….but all those birds and ducks and beautiful sunset…and somehow…my soul just seemed to find some rest….some peace. Even though I’m aware of so many things that are wrong…how many people disappoint, how much mean can be done by other humans…but I remembered…that I am not without disappointments for many. I know I have said mean things, done things I’m not proud of…and continue to disappoint.
The sun setting….the birds singing….and I felt peace…sometimes…you just need to turn off all the other noise…to really hear the important message.
This weekend….I’m back at doing things that I’ve put off for six months….I’ve gotten lazy…made excuses…wanted to take time to lick my own wounds…had nothing else to give…needed a rest…but I’m back. My heart is still hurt…its still learning to trust again…but in the meantime…there are others who need me…they need to laugh….see someone be silly….and forget for a moment….the ugly of life….just like the sunset…the birds…and the quiet of nature did for me yesterday.
The Reluctant Red Nose 