Dare to Dream

Today….felt good….and it’s been awhile.

There are battles and drama and trouble and fear and angst that all of us are going through. I think right now some of us feel that we will break.

Everywhere I turn someone is suffering. I have finally figured out that I am the person that absolutely “feels” all of that and it makes it hard for me sometimes. I don’t know where to put the sadness…

Today, I felt like finally…we were making progress. My OT informed me I can finally be free from the compression glove and while that may seem like the absolute smallest thing in the world…I was elated. I almost threw the glove in the air. The swelling in my arm has finally started to go down…not enough for the sleeve but definitely enough for the glove. She then went over how I am not supposed to get out and be outside when it is super hot. I must be hydrated and not get over heated. she was not happy that we have been taking long walks in the heat. She told me recovery from radiation takes about a year for your body to heal….and that would normally make me cry…but being able to get rid of that glove was golden.

My husband reaches over to hold my hand….and I have this glove….it points to everyone that there is a problem. That I am broken…

I get it dirty because I forget and start watering flowers, baking bread… cleaning the house….and I forget…🤦🏼‍♀️

Today, I felt like finally I got a point and cancer did not win today.

I know many are in the trenches right now…and I know you feel you are going under….keep holding on….the win will come. It may be little but it will come….