We are headed into this new phase of life….and I find my bones relaxing….my brain resting. For so many years my brain has gone in several directions as most parents do but in my case…I did homeschooling as well.
My duties include keeping a store running and keeping a house going and educating two children. Both of my homeschooled children have been accepted into colleges and one has graduated and is doing well in his adult job. Our youngest was accepted into a very prestigious art school where the acceptance rate is around 54 percent.
I have a dog who quite literally has special needs but I do love him so…he suffers from anxiety and being afraid of the wind. We recently rehomed one of our dogs who was not doing well in a multiple dog household…some dogs don’t share well and he was one of them. We are hoping to find another at the shelter that fits into our lifestyle a bit better…a calmer dog who wants to love on us and we on them.
Last week when we were on our business trip we missed our daughter so much because she usually travels with us and it was just weird. I had no one to go with me to the Hello Kitty Cafe….no one to marvel at the size of bubbles in my bathtub….my best gal pal is moving on to greener pastures and while I am so proud of her…my heart hurts and not having this built in friend of mine. Of course my husband and I are very close and we have worked hard to keep our relationship fresh and close….but I will never get him to get excited about my next embroidery or needlepoint project like my daughter. He doesn’t love our animals like we do..he doesn’t marvel at my home decor or thrift purchases and for that….i just need to be grateful for the time I had and realize that it was a beautiful time together….
This season of life is difficult to navigate with the passing of my Dad and the ongoing care of my Mother…..the importance of keeping up with my own health and the reluctance of not wanting to work out. There is the emotional toil of watching as my parents are getting ready for heaven and my children are getting ready to start life and we are stuck in the middle watching the end….and the beginning. Some days it seems way too much.
My garden brings me peace….my hobbies calm my soul and I try to be grateful as my heart learns a new way of life….
I find myself wanting more furry children….not understanding what to do with this need to care for things….
The cooking and the laundry are so easy now…the house seems picked up and when it isn’t you have no one else to blame…
And continuing my needlepoint infatuation
As soon as I figure this out….I am sure that the river of life will once again….change its course
The Reluctant Red Nose 